I have my 20 year reunion from college coming up!
20 years flew.....10 years ago I had my first baby and 10 years before that I was a young girl living on my own in Baltimore! So strange to think about life in chunks of 10....what will I say 10 years from now about myself?
We are traveling to Baltimore for my reunion....I can't wait to see my college...I know so many changes have occured since I was there....it has grown by leaps and bounds since I walked the campus.
I have been rushing around looking for a dress to wear and finally found one tonight with the kids in tow.
When I think back on the "college Annie", I picture:
a political science major....a republican....a catholic....a party girl.....a girl that wanted to sleep in and skip class.... an insecure girl that would drop a class if the syllabus called for an oral presentation....a girl that loved living in Baltimore and all that it had to offer!!!!
I decided to major in poly sci because I found myself a senior in high school absolutely fascinated by politics. I watched the Iran Contra hearings and loved Oliver North.....I loved Ronald Reagan..(still do)!
I remember taking a class in college, Soviet Politics, and LOVED learning about the Soviet Union and dreamed of visiting some day.
I was in the "Young Republicans" and remember standing on the corner of Cold Spring Rd. in Baltimore, holding up a sign that read, "Honk for Alan Keys" ( I think that is who he was...running for senate or something)....I worked for the governor of MD as an intern and that's when I decided that politics was boring!
It was my senior year of college! I guess you could say I had come "full circle" from high school.
I looked through my old college yearbook today to see if I would remember names. I found myself right there back in school in my mind. I am such a different person today.....or am I?
This week, as I looked for a dress to wear to the reunion, I was striking out left and right. I stood there looking at myself in the mirror over and over with disgust.....I didn't like the way I looked in anything. "If only had I worked out! Why didn't I stick with that hellish video?" I thought to myself.
Suddenly, as I walked around the mall, I realized that I hadn't changed all that much from college. Deep inside I am still that insecure girl walking through the college cafeteria with my food tray desperately scanning for my roommates table, hoping no one was looking at me.
I may not like politics, may not be a practicing catholic.....may not be a party girl but deep inside I am still a young girl wishing I could be kind to the girl in the mirror and not judging her!
20 years and still lots of work to do!!!
Oh well....I am also still a girl that LOVES Baltimore and cannot wait until I am standing on the corner of Cold Spring Rd. again....this time no Alan Keys sign in sight, just a girl....holding my kids hands, proudly showing them where Mommy lived and loved once upon a time!




